The fear
My greatest fear is that I'll never break free of the same bullshit.
That I'll be stuck in my same self-sabotaging habits that prevent me from accomplishing anything of worth.
Academically, I know that my habits are my habits because they work for and I benefit from them.
I'm worried because I'm not getting excited about goals in my life.
Really the only time I get excited is when I look in baby's face.
But it seems I've repressed all desire.
Great way to avoid pain but unfortunately also a great way to avoid pleasure.
I seek a hire mode of functioning. A solution to this emotional rubix cube.
That I'll be stuck in my same self-sabotaging habits that prevent me from accomplishing anything of worth.
Academically, I know that my habits are my habits because they work for and I benefit from them.
I'm worried because I'm not getting excited about goals in my life.
Really the only time I get excited is when I look in baby's face.
But it seems I've repressed all desire.
Great way to avoid pain but unfortunately also a great way to avoid pleasure.
I seek a hire mode of functioning. A solution to this emotional rubix cube.
posted by heathen saint at 5:14 PM
1 Comments:
Allan!
It's Joseph.
You tracked me down a few years back and contacted me, but I never replied. I had been meaning to write you back all along, it just didnt happen though. I suck at staying in touch with people.
I would like to talk to you. If you contact me again, this time I promise I will reply.
-- Joseph Sniderman
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